Exceptionally frazzly today

It's just one of those days where all the crap seems to sit on you. I want to have a good cry, but it would stir up more shit. The voices are very loud today. He is having a meeting with them in the living room. I can't talk, because they would hear me and try and get me too. He is not allowed to leave the apartment, or they will exact some sort of revenge. The bugs are everywhere and sometimes on the food so that it cannot be eaten. This is interspersed with mostly normal for a couple hours at a time.
My business has been destroyed by the company that will not be named here. I have filed a complaint with the state AG's office. Any way you slice it, the Holiday season has been screwed for me. Trying to remain positive, but it gets harder every day. Kinda want to curl into a ball and hide, but I can't. I'm the one making it all work. Isn't that scary? Just have to get through it one minute at a time. I think it may be time to wright the family and let them know that this will most likely be the last Holiday season that he is even mostly there. he has an appointment with his primary doc on the 25th. The Neuro on Dec. 11th. And we just hold on and hope that maybe new meds help or something. I have applied for aid, but it is too early to hear back yet. The anti-psychotics really do help, but they are not a cure. And it will only get worse from here on out. I fucking hate dementia.